Trip to Fresno

Well I left on friday like I said at 4pm due to many stops I had to take care of for a cousin I got to Fresno at 11pm on the dot.........may I say Im proud of myself Ive NEVER driven so far alone........it was nice in a way I was able to enjoy the scenery and have alone time.Akira was calling me to make sure I was ok........awwww......she was concerned because I was alone in the car and if anything happened she wouldnt know but I assured her that my onstar would let her know and it will take care of me if anything happened so she was happy about that.While I was driving my sister called me a few times to see were I was and to just chat we dont do that ever......so it was nice.....ofcourse Oni called me to see how the drive was and he would calculate the time frame as to how much longer Id be he said Id arrive at 11pm when I told him I was in the mountains he was right!! lol**
My poor hubby he was pacing around he was nervous for me to be driving so late but it was worth it I got to his aunts house I called my mom and sister and txted Akiras granpma to let them know I arrived safely and he came out of the house (looked like he was waiting at the door not to sure)and I just hugged him ! I missed him alot but I was soooooo tired and I needed to shower it was hot!!! (84 to be exact) I greeted everyone they were all awake planning a wedding for this weekend coming.....I looked at his aunt and she looks sick......very thin in the face but her belly is very swollen.......the Drs say any day now shes around due to her faith and the fact that her daughter is getting married soon...it was nice to be there with the family we had a Bridal Shower the next day it was hot!! (98!!!) but it all turned out beautiful it was very emotional.......possible the last get together so we all think together it was all worth the drive to see my hubby and Gena she ran to me!! didnt let go and wnted me to hlp in everything she normally does alone it felt real nice to be needed again well be leaving again friday this time for the wedding Akira will be coming with us this time so well be leaving late........(I pick her up at 7pm) this trip will be more emoti0nal than the last one.......I pray shes still wth us for more days...months even a year I know thats pushing it....but I can hope.....I will post some picturers later on......thanks for reading

missed and appreciated

Have you ever thought that you can do things without your partner being there? simple things like going to the store or taking out the trash and so forth just little things?? Well I thought hey I can do it I dont need help well here I am Oni left to Fresno last night with Genesis and my inlaws and I have just Akira with me...(thank goodness!!!) After he left we went to Walmart I decided to paint Akiras toe nails and let her pick her color.......while I was there I gotmore water and things we needed.........ok well as I was putting the things in the car it hit me.......I have to carry ALL this inside and up the stairs!!! yes Akira helped me but the heavy things like the water and coke zero.......man! Oni was always the one to tell me that hed get it for me........I was tired and wanted the day to end but it was only 6:30pm......so I told Akira to shower and I carrie the hevy things up stairs while she showered I noticed ok.....trash..........I carried all the trash out after a while I also realized I forgot to get my medication I take (BCP) AND the bird food (which Oni did ask me to get around 3pm.) so off we went to the stores .........I never realized how much I depend on him for the small things.......!!!

I got home showered and it was so quiet!! Akira was at my moms,she takes her to school in the am since I wake up at 4:30am....I couldnt sleep to quiet......no noise no lights on...scary finally I called Oni it was 11:00pm. he was almost to Fresno.......I said goodnight and tried to sleep when I woke up it hit me again.....Im alone so I made the bed tidied things up a bit got ready and took off to work.....normally I call Oni at 10:00am to say Hi and talk to Gena not sure if that can happen today so much is going on.....his aunt is dying and I want to be there for him but cant because of work.....Im doing my best to be un-selfish but I MISS them!!! I know they will be home soon....probable friday I dont know how military wives do this and I KNOW Im complaining but this makes me appreciate him more I thought yea!! FINALLY get to go to the gym wkout ok no.....I need to get Akira make dinner help with homework......and spend qulity time with her.......which I appreciate I enjoy talking to her with no interuption........she has alot to say......this has a good and bad I guess.....Im just realizing how much I depend on him and appreciate the small things.....yes I KNOW once they are home Ill go back to being annoyed that the house is a mess and to much noise but for now......I miss them <3