Back to work:(

I've started wking again this week..... I originally wasn't going to go back until feb 10 but due to some issues wth the leave company I decided to come back early. Luckily daddy is wking from home so he's wth the kids. I'm sad... I miss my babies I loved waking up getting them all ready and taking them to school them home clean cook and spend time wth Angel. He's been sick so I feel like I need to be home but I know he's in good hands. When I got home yesterday and he saw me he moved his hands and feet and wa happy to see me:) he smiled big and cooed<3 I knew he missed me!! Lol poor Oni tried holding him so I can get ready for bed and yup he cried!:( not what I wanted... As for my diet I started weight watchers and now I'm also doing raw foods... Not 100% but I will eat more veggies and fruits and less meats... Yesterday I made spagetti squash meat balls in sauce and steamed broccoli I had just the veggies no meat my goal is to have atleast 2 meals of just veggies. It's going to take me some time just bcause I need to cook fo everyone not just me... The family ate all of their food even Oni who isn't into veggies to much enjoyed his dinner:) as for wking out I haven't been able to I'm also getting sick so when I can I will start walking and so on for now I need to get better first. I want to take a pix of how I look now but I'm very selfconscious:( I'll see if I can do it! Lol txs for cking up on me!!

Loosing the weight

It's been 2mon since my little mans been born and I've been struggling to loose the baby fat:( when he was born I was 170 I breast fed him from birth an also bottle fed until he was 61/2 weeks due to lack of milk... Anyways, at first the weight started coming off quick! I was 149 within a couple of weeks then it just stopped! I'm happy that some of it is gone don't get me wrong but I really wish I would loose all of it quickly I'm going back to work feb 10 and my cousins sweet sixteen is in march I dnt want to be over weight ....before I became preg I went on a cruise I gained about 5-7lbs I was 133 so when I came back I was almost 140 then I find out I'm preg then gain 5lbs so total from start to finish I gained over 30 but from first appt was 25 I've lost about 21 but I need to loose more my goal weight has always been 125-130 ughh right now I'm 149..... So I need about 19-29lbs to loose. On this blog I'll be posting about my weight loss and struggles I'll do my best to be consistant but with 3 kids a full time job and a husband it won't be easy!

Today I started: bf:oatmeal wth thin bagel whole wheat 1cup of coffee
I wkout wth Jillian micheals last chnce wkout it was 30min and MAN! I didn't do the cool dwn baby woke up so I did 25min I think? I was sweating alot!!!
Lunch will be mahi mahi with brown rice
dinner is chicken breast on whole wheat pasta and steamed zuccini

My goal is to loose about 4lbs a month...wish me luck!!

Grls having fun..

We went to Lego Land a few weekends ago for my nephews 7th bday they had SOOO much fun =) Were trying to get them out since its been very hot and before our little man comes....










They knocked out once we got home =)

Stress and new challenges

I know not many comment on this blog and Im ok with it =) I know the important ppl read it and thats what matters. Lately its been stressful at home... we just found out Akira has ADD.........took my a while to convince myself that it was true, no parent wants their child to have anything wrong with them. Shes a sweet grl, ppl wouldnt know she has it UNLESS you have known her the whole 10yrs and have been around her 100% no its not ADHD, shes not hyper just that her attention span is shorter and is unable to concentrate long enough to learn any subject. Oni was the one who told me to get her tested, I said no.... hes been telling me for 6yrs and I keep refusing to admit that she has anything wrong.... But one day he called me and even though the conversation was LONG and upsetting...it made me realize that I had to get her tested.FIRST I did some research, for about 2 weeks I looked into it and asked questions to a friend whos son has ADD also and hes had it since 2nd grade, hes now in Jr High. I took her and she tested positive for it , the hard part? Well its accepting it and telling her father... THAT WAS HARD! he and I dont get along well or long enough to make a difference in anything. When I got the results back I called him and we were able to talk about it for a good while. He agreed for her to take a medication called Straterra.. its a nonstimulant medication and has the LEAST side effects compared to other meds. I REFUSE to give her Ritalin.. her Dr actually suggested it, I said NO. Her dad was very happy with my decision and he knows how it feels to be on it, he has ADHD, he deals with it on his own but when we were together he stayed active .I dont normally agree on meds, but we (me and Oni) have done just about EVERYTHING to help her.... I pray I made the right decision, shes been struggling in school and at home, always in trouble never listening and being pregnant it was starting to become overwhelming....I would cry wondering what else we can do... now I feel like it was the best choice for HER. I talked to her teacher and she suggested Akira be tested also at school (she encouraged me also to get her tested for ADD) the testing is to be sure she has no other learning "Gaps" and I agreed to it. I hope and pray nothing else comes up. I have explained to her what ADD is and shes been taking her medication pretty well.... only side effect is she looes her appetite for a while but I make sure she eats something ... shes a good grl and I love her to death, I hope this new path we took helps her in school so she no longer struggle....

Sensative and independent

Our youngest Gena has gone through some um.... emotional changes. She's always been a sweet loving and caring little girl, still is but I notice she's getting more sensative and also demanding. Why? Example: yesterday she's in her room playing with akira, she runs to the hall way and tells her dad : daddy u told me you were going to buy me a ant littliest pet shop and u didn't now I'm mad at u go buy me one!" ok where did that come from!?? So she ran back to her room and I called her back and explained to her that just because she's mad doesn't mean she gets her way... She asked why not and I told her because when ur mad and have an attitude it doesn't mean you get ur way... It's not how we do things here.... She apologized to her dad for being mad... Another example: last night I had the Grls get ready for bed... I hear Gena scream at akira : I told u I can doooo it!!! *grunts angry* and I call Akira and ask what happened.. She notices Gena hving problems with her pj shirt sooo akira trying to be helpful (which only happens once in a while as siblings they have good and bad days we all did lol) she helped her... Well Ms moody got angry... I called Gena and asked why she was mad.. "Akira helped me but I can do it and I don't want her to help me and I'm mad!" me and Oni had to calm her down and let her know help is ok... But not to be angry when someone offers help, especially sister... So she gave akira a hug and said sorry... Gena is very independant.... Always has been... Poor akira!! I told Oni ok she's a moody one lately, he gave me a look... "well I wonder why,(he meant the preg ) and I agree... Once I get home both Grls start up... When I'm gone they behave and do good.... Geez! Lol I'm a jinx! Lol

Helping mommy

So far the girls have been good regarding me being preg. I'm already 4 1/2 months and the girls have heard the heart beat:) they both are excited to know if they will welcome a brother or sister. Since the girls are older (akira 10 and Gena will be 5) they now have more responsibilities . Akira already takes out the trash and makes her own bed, but now her job is to help with the dogs and clean up after them. When we eat her job is also to wash her own dishes... not everyones just hers...she's been helping me carry the basket of laundry and making sure that all her cloths are put away. It's been hard she still gets moody but she's never talked back just makes her " do I really have to" face lol
Gena... Oh Gena.... See she's never had to do much pick up her toys and that's it, now when I ask her to put her cloths away when I do laundry she says she's scared to.. Why? " because I'm small and need help" yup she's playing the I'm to small to do things card, doesn't work. She also makes her bed (sortof) and gets dressed alone. We help her less now which is great. She kisses the belly ALOT. Akira is not as affectionate she's never been but she will hug me and give kisses... But tells me she's excited about the baby. I'm just happy that they are helping out more and I think this will make a BIG difference once the baby is born:)

Life changes....

So I found out that Im pregnant, I'm about 2months along and I have a separate blog about the pregnancy, I was nervous about telling the girls about the baby because Akira was not happy about me being pregnant with Gena when she was 4yrs old she took it hard. So I sort of expected Gena to feel the same way, I first told my hubby and the funny thing is he already knew I was pregnant he looked at me the night before I found out and told me "Im not playing around, I have a feeling your pregnant, I can actually see you walking around with a belly" I was not taking him serious because its been about 5months that we have been trying and NADA.........so I didn't want to put my hopes up..so the next am I did my normal routine and had my coffee........YUCK nothing I ate tasted good to me at all so I was nervous about it.I was late about 2 days but when that happens and I take a test its ALWAYS negative and its disappointing.I went to Target at my first break and bought a test. I took it and it was POSITIVE!! YAY!! I was shaking! I was so excited I told a friend of mine who knew we were trying.....she was super excited and Oni was shocked....lol See we went to a cruise a few weeks back and we were being told we would come back pregnant haha OK well turns out we WERE pregnant but didnt know it!!

I asked Oni not to tell many people....but he told Gena, she was EXCITED! bought the baby a bouncy...Now I had to tell Akira...to my surprise when I told her she thought I was joking, she kept telling me "Yea right your playing...dont lie to me mom, are you serious?!" She was happy so that made me feel better..Everyone was told (grandma's/pa's aunts and so on) and everyone is excited for us. Its been a change for me because Gena is so loving towards the baby now OK at first she was just plain hyper and wanted to play rough and starts punching and gets carried away but now shes calmed down, she just kisses my tummy and talks to the baby. Akira and Gena draw pictures of the family with a baby in my tummhy sooo cute!!!!!! Im excited to bring another member into the family, I know my girls will adore the baby and will be a big help.....they both are really embracing this new change which makes the pregnancy easier for me .

I will still write in this blog but it wil be about the changes the girls are going through with the pregnancy the other blog I have will mainly be for the pregnancy, if your not a follower yet of the new blog please feel free to follow me...=)