Stress and new challenges

I know not many comment on this blog and Im ok with it =) I know the important ppl read it and thats what matters. Lately its been stressful at home... we just found out Akira has ADD.........took my a while to convince myself that it was true, no parent wants their child to have anything wrong with them. Shes a sweet grl, ppl wouldnt know she has it UNLESS you have known her the whole 10yrs and have been around her 100% no its not ADHD, shes not hyper just that her attention span is shorter and is unable to concentrate long enough to learn any subject. Oni was the one who told me to get her tested, I said no.... hes been telling me for 6yrs and I keep refusing to admit that she has anything wrong.... But one day he called me and even though the conversation was LONG and upsetting...it made me realize that I had to get her tested.FIRST I did some research, for about 2 weeks I looked into it and asked questions to a friend whos son has ADD also and hes had it since 2nd grade, hes now in Jr High. I took her and she tested positive for it , the hard part? Well its accepting it and telling her father... THAT WAS HARD! he and I dont get along well or long enough to make a difference in anything. When I got the results back I called him and we were able to talk about it for a good while. He agreed for her to take a medication called Straterra.. its a nonstimulant medication and has the LEAST side effects compared to other meds. I REFUSE to give her Ritalin.. her Dr actually suggested it, I said NO. Her dad was very happy with my decision and he knows how it feels to be on it, he has ADHD, he deals with it on his own but when we were together he stayed active .I dont normally agree on meds, but we (me and Oni) have done just about EVERYTHING to help her.... I pray I made the right decision, shes been struggling in school and at home, always in trouble never listening and being pregnant it was starting to become overwhelming....I would cry wondering what else we can do... now I feel like it was the best choice for HER. I talked to her teacher and she suggested Akira be tested also at school (she encouraged me also to get her tested for ADD) the testing is to be sure she has no other learning "Gaps" and I agreed to it. I hope and pray nothing else comes up. I have explained to her what ADD is and shes been taking her medication pretty well.... only side effect is she looes her appetite for a while but I make sure she eats something ... shes a good grl and I love her to death, I hope this new path we took helps her in school so she no longer struggle....

Sensative and independent

Our youngest Gena has gone through some um.... emotional changes. She's always been a sweet loving and caring little girl, still is but I notice she's getting more sensative and also demanding. Why? Example: yesterday she's in her room playing with akira, she runs to the hall way and tells her dad : daddy u told me you were going to buy me a ant littliest pet shop and u didn't now I'm mad at u go buy me one!" ok where did that come from!?? So she ran back to her room and I called her back and explained to her that just because she's mad doesn't mean she gets her way... She asked why not and I told her because when ur mad and have an attitude it doesn't mean you get ur way... It's not how we do things here.... She apologized to her dad for being mad... Another example: last night I had the Grls get ready for bed... I hear Gena scream at akira : I told u I can doooo it!!! *grunts angry* and I call Akira and ask what happened.. She notices Gena hving problems with her pj shirt sooo akira trying to be helpful (which only happens once in a while as siblings they have good and bad days we all did lol) she helped her... Well Ms moody got angry... I called Gena and asked why she was mad.. "Akira helped me but I can do it and I don't want her to help me and I'm mad!" me and Oni had to calm her down and let her know help is ok... But not to be angry when someone offers help, especially sister... So she gave akira a hug and said sorry... Gena is very independant.... Always has been... Poor akira!! I told Oni ok she's a moody one lately, he gave me a look... "well I wonder why,(he meant the preg ) and I agree... Once I get home both Grls start up... When I'm gone they behave and do good.... Geez! Lol I'm a jinx! Lol

Helping mommy

So far the girls have been good regarding me being preg. I'm already 4 1/2 months and the girls have heard the heart beat:) they both are excited to know if they will welcome a brother or sister. Since the girls are older (akira 10 and Gena will be 5) they now have more responsibilities . Akira already takes out the trash and makes her own bed, but now her job is to help with the dogs and clean up after them. When we eat her job is also to wash her own dishes... not everyones just hers...she's been helping me carry the basket of laundry and making sure that all her cloths are put away. It's been hard she still gets moody but she's never talked back just makes her " do I really have to" face lol
Gena... Oh Gena.... See she's never had to do much pick up her toys and that's it, now when I ask her to put her cloths away when I do laundry she says she's scared to.. Why? " because I'm small and need help" yup she's playing the I'm to small to do things card, doesn't work. She also makes her bed (sortof) and gets dressed alone. We help her less now which is great. She kisses the belly ALOT. Akira is not as affectionate she's never been but she will hug me and give kisses... But tells me she's excited about the baby. I'm just happy that they are helping out more and I think this will make a BIG difference once the baby is born:)

Life changes....

So I found out that Im pregnant, I'm about 2months along and I have a separate blog about the pregnancy, I was nervous about telling the girls about the baby because Akira was not happy about me being pregnant with Gena when she was 4yrs old she took it hard. So I sort of expected Gena to feel the same way, I first told my hubby and the funny thing is he already knew I was pregnant he looked at me the night before I found out and told me "Im not playing around, I have a feeling your pregnant, I can actually see you walking around with a belly" I was not taking him serious because its been about 5months that we have been trying and NADA.........so I didn't want to put my hopes up..so the next am I did my normal routine and had my coffee........YUCK nothing I ate tasted good to me at all so I was nervous about it.I was late about 2 days but when that happens and I take a test its ALWAYS negative and its disappointing.I went to Target at my first break and bought a test. I took it and it was POSITIVE!! YAY!! I was shaking! I was so excited I told a friend of mine who knew we were trying.....she was super excited and Oni was shocked....lol See we went to a cruise a few weeks back and we were being told we would come back pregnant haha OK well turns out we WERE pregnant but didnt know it!!

I asked Oni not to tell many people....but he told Gena, she was EXCITED! bought the baby a bouncy...Now I had to tell Akira...to my surprise when I told her she thought I was joking, she kept telling me "Yea right your playing...dont lie to me mom, are you serious?!" She was happy so that made me feel better..Everyone was told (grandma's/pa's aunts and so on) and everyone is excited for us. Its been a change for me because Gena is so loving towards the baby now OK at first she was just plain hyper and wanted to play rough and starts punching and gets carried away but now shes calmed down, she just kisses my tummy and talks to the baby. Akira and Gena draw pictures of the family with a baby in my tummhy sooo cute!!!!!! Im excited to bring another member into the family, I know my girls will adore the baby and will be a big help.....they both are really embracing this new change which makes the pregnancy easier for me .

I will still write in this blog but it wil be about the changes the girls are going through with the pregnancy the other blog I have will mainly be for the pregnancy, if your not a follower yet of the new blog please feel free to follow me...=)

Im back...

I know I have been away for a while. We had alot of fun at our cruise and enjoyed the time we had to ourselves.We did miss the girls ALOT but knew we needed our time, see we never had a honeymoon because Gena was born THEN we got married so it was never an option to just get up and leave the kids behind for so long, we do leave for a day or so but then come right back ....This time we were gone for 3days and I didnt see Akira leave to her dads =( I dropped her off with my mom at 12 and I normally take her to her dads at 7pm so this was hard for me, as for Gena she was at school so no goodbye kisses and goodnight hugs =( It WASNT easy, but once we took off and knew the grls were ok then it started to get easier. When we came back I knew I gained weight......5lbs to be exact!! BOOOO but I managed to loose 3lbs of it. I was off for a few days while Akira was on spring break and made sure I ate healthy and did some type of wkouts....she went with me on my job while she rode her bike it was nice being able to take her with me. I have alot of things going on right now, they are really good things, once Im ready and set I will make sure to write about it........I knw a few of you know about it already, and I appreciate the silence lol but for now I know that I will be having alot on my plate =) thanks for cking up on me

Sugar free#22

Today was a good day!!!
6am: 1 cup of kix (dry) and coffee
8:30am: toast whole wheat and butter also my oatmeal
10am snck orange and water 32oz
11:30: Asian salad also more water
12:30 vanilla pudding s/f with strawberries and 4 whoel wheat crackers
2:00: apple
4:30: s/f cookies(4)
6:00pm: Dinner I made chili con carne and brown rice.....

Wkoout:30min power walk

I dont think I have lost anymore weight but I feel really good!! I was cked out ALOT yesterday and was told I stole someones breath away cheesy I know but hey I have 2 kids when I get hit on or looked at it gives me confidence! ofcourse I told him Im married!! lol anywho if I loose more thats great if not then Im ok just being healthy is important! =D

Sugar free#21

Today was a tad different I tried to eat a tad more but seemed to get hungry anyways:
6am-coffee and 6 s.f cookies
7am 2 boiled egg whites
8:40am:oatmeal with whole grain toast and spray butter also 32oz of water
10am:1 cup of watermelon (ok so I forgot we coudnt eat it until AFTER I ate it)
11:40am Brown rice and chicken veggie stir fry
1:10pm 4 strawberries and a chocolate pudding (s/f) IT WAS YUMMY!!!!!!
3:00 Pretzels and an orange
6pm We went to Apple Bees for dinner.... I ordered the Asian crunchy salad....no dressing....it has chicken sugar snap peas and almonds cilantro and cucumbers it was good!

Hubby always orders a appetizer....I didnt eat any =) I picked at the crumbs of the tortilla chips but thats it..also water with lemon

I got home and wanted something sweet.....I tried eating the s/f cookies but I served the girls a piece of hubbys cake.....yup I picked at it .....talk about not learning my lesson tummy ache!!

Wkout: 30min power walk 100crunches 50 squats (sumo style) and 20 grlie push ups....

I did ok I feel like I ate ALOT!!!!! Now I read it and it looks ok........oh well its a daily struggle and everyday I learn........thanks for cking on me!