Wednesday

I ate ok struggled because we had a going away party potluck and there was tons of goodies:/ along with some stress it's not a good combination.

Bf: egg whites turkey sausage with bellpeppers and onions in a low carb tortilla
coffee
lunch left over turkey with bellpeppers and onions
ok sooo the potluck started after I ate, I did it on purpose thinking I would be to full to eat.fail.
They had tons of no no but I did get salads fruit and one pasta salad I never shouldve tried..Y? It was soooooooo good!! I went back for more it had beans groundmeat and cheese yummy! I had half a crossiant. They had a choc fountain with strawberries and pretzels to dip I had 1 of each and more regular fruit.
After work I did the eliptical for 40min burned off 400cal.
When I got home Onis friend brought over pizza!!:/ omg so I had 3 small slices they were cut into squares so it wasn't a normal slice size. I was exhausted so I took a nice nap got up played with the baby lifted him a few times (he's 17lbs) then did a couple of squats also . We wnt to bed by 9:30 so this am I woke up sore@__@ felt good but I need to maker sure I don't give into the goodies!! If I want to loose this weight I need to have more self control...

Txs for cking up on me:)

Tuesd

Breakfast: low carb tortilla (2pts)
3egg whites (1pt)
turkey sausage (2)
coffee (0)
lunch: salad chicken breast and steamed veggies left over from dinner (5pts)
snacks: sugar snap peas with green salsa that I made at home
drank alot of water and had fruit
wkout was a 30min walk and 30min on eliptical ..

At the end of the day I'm happy with how I did. I did have some of genas cheeto puffs that my inlaws gave het but only 6, it might seem like I didn't eat much but honestly I was full for dinner I had 1 low carb tortilla turkey sausage with bellpeppers and onions with some salsa... Yummy! I'm doing weight watcher again it helps me keep moderation under control... I feel good.. It's only day 2 of wking out but I can tell my body loves it. My cousin sent me a link on how to wkout with baby and I used it last night. I held Angel (he's 17lbs) facing the mirrior (he loves seeing his reflection he thinks it's another baby) and did squats... I made face. So he can laugh,.. I also laid on the couch and lifted him a couple of time my legs and back are sore:))

txs for cking up on me

Enough

I've been struggling with my weight, I haven't gained but i wasn't loosing an it's become very frustrating. My goal was to loose enough weight for a sweet sixteen we were going to.... I wanted to look good and feel comfortable in my own skin, and dress. Well, I wasn't where I wanted to be ... The day came and to be honest I felt ugly. It was hard finding a dress that hid the imperfections my
body has from having a baby, yes the pooch.... I hated it, I would try a dress on and wanted to just cry... Inside I did I screamed kicked and told myself "see u shouldve wked harder!! " but I knew that I did what I could... I do have 3 kids and a full time job and a husband... Oni would never tell me that I was ugly, he loves me for me.... Skinny overweight it doesn't matter to him..... I'm my worst critic..... I knw that. I found a dress that would hide my tummy.... My arms also.... I wasn't 100% excited over it... But i had little time so I bought it. At the party I ate pretty good I didn't have cake or candy... I did hve some of the food and it was yum! I saw how great my cousins looked and had to remind myself they've been working longer on their goals.... I was told I looked good... I tried to feel good but it wasn't easy...

When we came back from the party I told myself "ok.... You need to make more of an effort to wkout" but it's hard not seeing my kids but I'm an example... I need to show my girls to take pride in their bodies and to take care of it. So yesterday I wnt to the gym, first time in a long time... I did the eliptical for 30min.. It felt awesome.. For dinner I had a salad chicken breast and steamed veggies all mixed together.... I ate and was full until I went to bed. I had a great convo with my cousin.... She's my go to on loosing baby weight she had a baby 2yrs ago and looks great.... I have 2 ppl that I feel are my support group lol they both have gone through the weight struggles...(cousins Monica and iris) I was nervous about dinner at first... Why? Hubbys a meat person but he ate it all up and was very supportive about me having 30-1hr a day for me to wkout... And also enjoyed dinner and asked me to continue to make dinner healthier.... It made me happy to know he's on my side:) I don't want to loose weight to quickly I want to do it the right way... I'm hoping I can keep this up.... My goal is to loose the remaining baby weight before Angel is 1:) txs for cking up on me.... I'll post pics soon